that made him act the way he acted making me act
There isn't really anything I can do
where I can't think 'why am I doing this?'
Feels like I've been thinking 'need to stop this'
re [unknown] for at least 8 years, maybe
Relationships as the temporary, sometimes
repeated nearing of separate things' orbits
Viewing half my behavior as 'relapsing'
& doing it in a discouraging, unhelpful manner
Intuited every pigeon believes it is 'the one'